ugh

i don't know if i people can still call me a 'shawol' anymore.
yes, i still love this five shining boys.
yes, i still listen to their songs, i still do.
i still adore them in a way i couldn't do for other bands.

but...
there are so many obstacles to be a fan. being a fan is harder than people thought it is.
for some people,
being a fan means you have to be update about where are they now, what are they doing, watching their live performances,reading their news and their interviews. faster, better.
which, it's not me at all.
i don't know what shinee doing right now, i don't know what are their current  activities now. well i know, but just a bit.
i don't know other shawols. i'm not active in shinee fan based website. i only joined one site. i don't stalk allkpop and dkpopnews. i don't follow the fan/(member)biased account in twitter. i rarely watch their live performances and interviews.
so, is that wrong?
i like their personalities and acts and vocals. i support whatever they're doing right now.
that's what matter to me, i guess.

p.s i'm still a shawol, but some people might think that i'm a fake, but who cares? at least i bought their cds.
oh, and if anyone thinks i'm not a true fan(not only shawol,but kpop in general) because i never write about them in my twitter/tumblr/blog or i don't follow their twitter acc, or i never bonding with other fans, well yeah, it's your opinion anyway.
i have better life to do, and somehow kpop kind of ruins it (not like i blame it on kpop,kay, i blame myself for drowning in the kpop fantasy world) so i will try to avoid kpop and anything relates to that. wish me luuuuck
della