one year later.
how has your one year been?
i'm fine here. i'm always fine. well you never ask me anyway.
(i thought that everything is fine, and yes it is.
i've deleted my posts about you. every thing. no any single thing remains. uh, it's not likewe i have something to remember. i made the memories alone. i rewind the memories alone. and i'm the one who trying to forget, regret everything i ever do.
you never do that,because i means nothing for you.
a complete stranger.
it's actually a bit pathetic how i still keep you in a tiny piece named memory. you probably forget who i am, probably think that i'm just such a loser who still keeping hopes. even now.)
in my senior year, i thought that i have left that awkward weird girl who likes you in the past.
but i'm not.
i'm still the old me, i'm still the pathetic della, the 8th grader clumsy girl. i never change.
i said to people that i've done, i've done being the one who's hurt,broken,and covered with scars&bruises.
i'm done being a stranger, liking someone that doesnt know that i'm alive.
i'm done, i'm tired. i want to stop.
but i just can't.
sometimes, silly thoughts running in my head. 'how if that i could turn back time? everything would be just fine.' 'i should have said that instead of this,'
i do antything to impress you, but you never notice me, not even once.
---
june, is the last month i saw you. do you even realize that i was there, sat in front of gor, watching your steps as you passing me by?
i bet you don't. but i do, b, i do.
(i never see you after that)
---
earlier this night i saw you're online. i chatted you, 'hey'.
five minutes.
10 minutes.
30 minutes.
1 hour.
you never replied my chat. never. ever.
it's always been like that,b,since the first time i chatted you,since last year's july.why?
(unrequited love sucks the most, you know that?)
"For a long time, I’ve been living, having forgotten of you
For a while, I thought I was doing fine
However I started to realize it as time passed by
That I am nothing without you
I have no confidence in overcoming these endless regrets
So I’ve had to just repress them
One year has passed like that,
how has your one year been?"
one year later- onew&jessica.
i'm fine here. i'm always fine. well you never ask me anyway.
(i thought that everything is fine, and yes it is.
i've deleted my posts about you. every thing. no any single thing remains. uh, it's not like
you never do that,because i means nothing for you.
a complete stranger.
it's actually a bit pathetic how i still keep you in a tiny piece named memory. you probably forget who i am, probably think that i'm just such a loser who still keeping hopes. even now.)
in my senior year, i thought that i have left that awkward weird girl who likes you in the past.
but i'm not.
i'm still the old me, i'm still the pathetic della, the 8th grader clumsy girl. i never change.
i said to people that i've done, i've done being the one who's hurt,broken,and covered with scars&bruises.
i'm done being a stranger, liking someone that doesnt know that i'm alive.
i'm done, i'm tired. i want to stop.
but i just can't.
sometimes, silly thoughts running in my head. 'how if that i could turn back time? everything would be just fine.' 'i should have said that instead of this,'
i do antything to impress you, but you never notice me, not even once.
---
june, is the last month i saw you. do you even realize that i was there, sat in front of gor, watching your steps as you passing me by?
i bet you don't. but i do, b, i do.
(i never see you after that)
---
earlier this night i saw you're online. i chatted you, 'hey'.
five minutes.
10 minutes.
30 minutes.
1 hour.
you never replied my chat. never. ever.
it's always been like that,b,since the first time i chatted you,since last year's july.why?
(unrequited love sucks the most, you know that?)
"For a long time, I’ve been living, having forgotten of you
For a while, I thought I was doing fine
However I started to realize it as time passed by
That I am nothing without you
I have no confidence in overcoming these endless regrets
So I’ve had to just repress them
One year has passed like that,
how has your one year been?"
one year later- onew&jessica.
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