Blind

I am invisible but I am standing in front of you
But your eyes look past me  Just once, just once, please look for me
The more you feel, the more you feel
I become more and more invisible
In the hazy winter frost, I try to draw my heart but you don't know
I gather the scattered raindrops and shed them instead of tears but you don't know

currently listening to trax-blind. it's a pretty nice song, especially to accompany you in late nights, like what i do now.

In this moment, what i've got to do is one. Studying. I have two tests tomorrow... but i don't feel like studying right now. If i followed my selfish heart, i should've been sleeping right now. I would say that i'm bored with piles of tasks and i've got enough of exams and all i want to do...is anything but reading those text books. 

But i tried my best to not follow it. I'm not a kid anymore, i (try) to understand what's good to me, what's the priority for my future. I'm still in the transition phase, though. My junior high school heart is still inside..... I'm lost on the track.... but i promise i'll do my best and give my best shot to learn everything i've missed.

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enough with the school thing. i'm re-reading my blog and one thing that popped out from my mind was about how different i am in this year. I've got through lot of ups and downs, most of them were downfalls. I remember it was only like yesterday when it was January... and now we're in the middle of November, along with heavy rains and the exams waiting. I am thrilled about how will i spend the next one and a half months. I am hoping for the great days ahead  ;)