insecurities

sometimes i wonder why my blog feels like rant/trash can. You see, i'm a naturally happy-go-lucky person and am not this depressed/stressed out/melancholic in real life. But this blog right here is my sanctuary. I feel sane here, writing out my problems and how i overcome it. I personally think that no one read it, so it kinda feel like i have the whole internet for myself, and the reason i still write here is because i love to re-read my entries and understand that i could overcome struggles before. So why not now?
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Today i feel like ranting so much, i just feel so insecure right now, like a crumbled paper that can easily get tossed every time. One month from now on i will facing the national examination and i'm not ready yet, i'm scared, to be honest. My head's gonna explode, i can feel it coming....
God, if you're there, please give me strength to tackle this situation and come off like a boss.
I really,really want to ace this.
I need to ace this.
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