2024

Crazy that it is now 2024. There is so many things going on in the past two years (since I last wrote here), which I am mostly thankful for. I'll narrow it down to two: 

1. I got married 

My boyfriend is my husband now! We got married in the last season of pandemic haha so all of our wedding photos has pandemic mark on it (aka people wore masks). The story of how he proposed, the wedding jitters, and all the preparation deserve their own posts though. 

Getting married at 2022 was not something that I didn't completely expect but it was still shocking considering I always want to get married after school. Looking back it was the best decision ever. It made me feel more secure. I also thought that wow... love really grows. Every day I learn more about him, his quirks, his flaws, his routine. It made me feel so secure that I know this person so much, like the back of my hands. It made me happy that each day I know more. It made me happy that I have my rock, and to have someone who always supports me. I also think know that we understand each other more, we know how to communicate better. 

Honestly i am a bit sad that we are doing long-distance a lot (even though it was MY decision), because I can never give him the full support from afar, and vice versa. I am thankful that we never had a big issue (or any issue?) in the past one and half year during our long distance, and that we always make time to call every day, but it is still not enough. I want to be with him every day. Every time we get to spend time together it feels bittersweet because I know I have to go. To tell you the truth, I am so looking forward to June 2024, where our life together can finally starts for real. I can finally know married life for real, not just glimpses on it. I miss my husband every day. 

2. HBS! 

It still feels like a fever dream to be honest. Who would've thought that I will end up here, a lifetime dream of mine! It is as amazing as I thought it would be and more intimidating. I learned SO MUCH. I cried a lot during my first year because of the pressure and I still cry a bit during my third semester (but it was more about job-related-fear). I got to meet so many people and befriended some. I found new best friends and cherish old friendships. I traveled near and far, and will travel some more. I get to DREAM more - the sky is truly the limit.

It also doesn't hurt to have Harvard brand with me everywhere I goes because people respect it, and it does feel a bit like a cult, in a good way. My family was (is?) so so ecstatic that I got in, especially my mother. Honestly half of my happiness associated with going to Harvard is to know my mom is so proud and so happy that I got in and that she now has the right to brag to everyone haha. 

All in all, I wouldn't trade this part of my life for anything. I am so thankful that now I get to live my dream every day, but at the same time, I cannot wait for this MBA life to be over because it feels like a pause on my actual life. It feels weird because I juggle the feeling of wanting this to be over but feeling nostalgic that in three months it is really going to be over! I guess it is good that I know this part of my life is just temporary, so I can cherish it more....