such great heights

"come down now," they'll say.

but everything looks perfect from far away......

sometimes i wonder how is it like to be somebody else, to be in someone else's life. to see how is light in another side. is that someone's life easy? because mine is not. I need a break, i want to ignore everyone and everything. but i'm not a child anymore. It's not the life who understand me, i'm the one who understand it. It's hard, this phase. I stressed out so many times, putting a facade so people won't ask what's wrong..... but it's hard. maybe i am not the one with the most problems so i don't have the rights to whine and i just have to smile the whole time,pretending that i'm ok living this way because my problems aren't harder than them. But i'm not okay, i don't want to smile. My problems aren't that bad, but i always wanted someone to care. I realize that it was stupid of me. Because that someone isn't going to be there forever, they've got their own problems... and i don't want to let them taste my pain. I guess i just have to be my own hero. I have to be strong in my own. I have to understand life. I am trying,now.